What’s Your Why?

Lesbian log twenty-six-ten-twenty-one What’s your why? I once filled my days with people and experiences. My life was like an ion surrounded by protons and electrons whirling around me. My family made up my molecular whole. Outside of that, I had friends, acquaintances, jobs, hobbies, curious pursuits…an entire universe tailored to the life I’d created …

Muddy Boots

Lesbian log twenty-two-zero-six-twenty-one Yesterday was a pretty down day. I say that, but in truth it was just another day in a full calendar of down days. I described it as being frozen in time, mired in a tar pit of despair. Darkness has been a constant companion for a couple years now. I’ve tried …

Yo-Yo

Lesbian log sixteen-zero-four-twenty-one Emotions are a bitch. Coming from someone who isn’t overly fond of ‘experiencing’ their emotions, preferring to bury them rather than let them bubble up and flow over me, I gotta say, breakups are a very unpleasant business. Some days I think I have my head above water, and other times I …

Perspective is Everything

Lesbian log zero-three-zero-three-twenty-one Nothing has changed this week. I still know my time with my kids is dwindling down—like watching the last streams of sand empty from the hour glass—but over the last few days, I’ve tried hard to look at my experience from a place of abundance and stop dwelling in a space of …

Otherness

Otherness: (n) 1. the state of or fact of being other or different 2. A thing or existence separate from or other than the thing mentioned and the thinking subject. Years ago, I had a blog. I wrote about anything and everything, but eventually, I couldn’t come up with anything relevant or unique to say. …

Reset and Recharge

I’ve learned I’m an extroverted introvert. That’s my lesson from social distancing and learning to navigate a new world blending family commitments and responsibilities while still providing comfort and reassurance to those that need me.  I can give only so much before I’m just emotionally and physically drained.  Working from home provides very little opportunity …