originally published in The Globe and Mail March 29, 2021 “I think I’m gay.” The words came barreling out like a runaway train careening toward an unfinished bridge ahead, warning lights flashing, signs pleading to stop or turn back. But there was no turning back. I sat across from my husband of almost 30 years, …
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Drop in the Bucket
Lesbian log twenty-four-zero-six-twenty-one For many, COVID-19 has meant a complete disruption in schedule and programming. Just the daily routine of going into work has been interrupted for many. COVID has had immeasurable impacts on people’s mental health. For those going through trauma and difficult life changes, the repercussions of the pandemic have been devastating. Navigating …
Work in Progress
Lesbian log twenty-three-zero-six-twenty-one In an attempt to stay accountable, this blog will be my litmus test. This morning, I woke up and made it onto the treadmill for a second day in a row. This allowed me to increase the intensity of my jog-to-walk ratio. A positive sign. I am by nature a delicate flower. …
Muddy Boots
Lesbian log twenty-two-zero-six-twenty-one Yesterday was a pretty down day. I say that, but in truth it was just another day in a full calendar of down days. I described it as being frozen in time, mired in a tar pit of despair. Darkness has been a constant companion for a couple years now. I’ve tried …
Vortex
Lesbian log twenty-one-zero-six-twenty-one Hello, darkness, my old friend. It’s been awhile since I’ve written on the blog. Weeks of trying to put one foot in front of the other, one breath at a time. Summer has greeted me with its warmth, its sunshine and promise of brighter days. Vibrant and resplendent greens spread before me, …
Money Misery
Lesbian log twenty-nine-zero-three-twenty-one Can we talk about money for a second? Like seriously. What a pain in the ass. You work and work, scrounge, save and beg, borrow and steal from Peter to pay Paul. For what? I’ll be the first to admit that I was never good with money. I didn’t really understand the …
A Month In
Lesbian log thirteen-zero-two-twenty-one It’s been one month since I officially started my new life. For the first time, ever, I made my way on my own gumption, blood, sweat and tears. I moved into a new home, alone, on my own, arranged my own finances, qualified for my own credit cards and loans (which wasn’t …
You’re Not Pinned Down
Today’s random dictionary point and post is brought to you by the word pin. Pin: 1) a small thin pointed piece of esp. steel wire with a round or flattened head used for holding things in place, attaching one thing to another etc. 2) pin down — to a promise, arrangement etc. 3) force a …
Otherness
Otherness: (n) 1. the state of or fact of being other or different 2. A thing or existence separate from or other than the thing mentioned and the thinking subject. Years ago, I had a blog. I wrote about anything and everything, but eventually, I couldn’t come up with anything relevant or unique to say. …
Reset and Recharge
I’ve learned I’m an extroverted introvert. That’s my lesson from social distancing and learning to navigate a new world blending family commitments and responsibilities while still providing comfort and reassurance to those that need me. I can give only so much before I’m just emotionally and physically drained. Working from home provides very little opportunity …